Summertime
After a very long leave of absence from my blog, I'm back! Because I am writing this on a computer in the library, I only have 12 minutes to journal my life from April until now. Ooops, only 11 minutes left!
Since I last wrote, my life has been filled with moments of self-discovery and large decisions to be made. It's been scary, and it's been exhilarating. I've had some real highs and some terrifying lows. Somedays I feel like I've woken up on a roller coaster, and I'm being tossed around as my emotions shoot up and down and all around in just a matter of minutes. Wow! Such is life, I guess.
My biggest pivotal moment recently occurred when, a month ago, I made the decision to leave England in the autumn. I cried for two days after I made that decision, but I know it's right. I feel it in my gut. It's not easy, but sometimes the right thing to do is also the hardest.
In just a few weeks, I'll leave a country that I have learned to love with a passion. I'll say goodbye to people who have been my family and friends in a place where I didn't know a soul to start with. It's going to hurt like crazy. It's going to break my heart.
Oswald Chambers once wrote something like, "If through a broken heart God can accomplish His purposes, pray that God breaks your heart." That's not a direct quote, but the gist of it is the same. Sometimes God works best through us when our hearts are broken and crushed, when we have nothing left to hold on to but Him. I pray that's what He does with me. My heart will break when I leave England, but I pray He'll use the pieces of it to make something new and wonderful.
Please be praying for me in the coming weeks and months. This is a new adventure. Carpe diem!
Since I last wrote, my life has been filled with moments of self-discovery and large decisions to be made. It's been scary, and it's been exhilarating. I've had some real highs and some terrifying lows. Somedays I feel like I've woken up on a roller coaster, and I'm being tossed around as my emotions shoot up and down and all around in just a matter of minutes. Wow! Such is life, I guess.
My biggest pivotal moment recently occurred when, a month ago, I made the decision to leave England in the autumn. I cried for two days after I made that decision, but I know it's right. I feel it in my gut. It's not easy, but sometimes the right thing to do is also the hardest.
In just a few weeks, I'll leave a country that I have learned to love with a passion. I'll say goodbye to people who have been my family and friends in a place where I didn't know a soul to start with. It's going to hurt like crazy. It's going to break my heart.
Oswald Chambers once wrote something like, "If through a broken heart God can accomplish His purposes, pray that God breaks your heart." That's not a direct quote, but the gist of it is the same. Sometimes God works best through us when our hearts are broken and crushed, when we have nothing left to hold on to but Him. I pray that's what He does with me. My heart will break when I leave England, but I pray He'll use the pieces of it to make something new and wonderful.
Please be praying for me in the coming weeks and months. This is a new adventure. Carpe diem!
posted by Michelle @ 1:46 PM
0 Comments:
Post a Comment
<< Home